"Enough."
This piece is the latest in a long line, for the last year I have had this image of a high contrast portrait of a woman crying golden tears but kept coming up with new iterations of it never quite being satisfied with the result. While the work isn't ever truly finished, this is the closest to my idea that I have made so far. For the longest time I didn't know why I felt the need to make this but it was around when I was nearly done with this piece is when I figured it out; I wanted to make the ideal version of myself, clearly not a self portrait but a representation of what I wish I could be. I titled this piece "Enough." because. that is something that I wish I could say. I want to throw down my sword and stop the fight, fix the problems, and end the war. I want to have a reserve of power that I haven't yet tapped into, I want to be able to say 'I wish it hadn't come to this but I'm putting my foot down.' My aim was to reflect this still moment of simultaneously being able to give up the struggle and also not let go of what your were fighting for. However, in reality, you can't give up and not give up at the same time so I chose to create a fantasy where I could.